Search For Sri Krishna Reality The Beautiful - Chapter Nine

Surrender is not a lip transaction. Surrender means not only to surrender one’s possessions, but to realize that the possessions themselves are false. I am not a master of anything. I am not even master of myself. Surrender means to give everything to the Guru, and rid ourselves of the unholy connection of so many possessions, so that they may not disturb us by always suggesting, “You are my master,” and in this way misleading us.

We should think, “Everything belongs to the Lord and His delegation, the Guru. I am not the master of anything.” That sort of knowledge we should imbibe, and that will be helpful to our real spiritual progress. This is reality. We have to realize that fact. We want the truth, and we want to free ourselves from false notions. So, proper dīkṣā, spiritual initiation, imparts the divine knowledge that nothing belongs to us; not only that, but everything belongs to God, including ourselves. That is the conception of dīkṣā: “I belong to Him; everything belongs to Him. I am His servant, and these are the objects of His service.”

This is reality, and we are suffering under non-reality in an imaginary world. We are living in a fool’s paradise. We should do away with the fool’s paradise and try to enter into real paradise. When we have a peep into the characteristic of the absolute environment of reality, and even a little regard for the truth, we can no longer relish the paraphernalia of this world as we did previously. Because we have had a real taste of the higher truth, we will have no charm for this material world. We will no longer feel encouragement to meet with the duties that are relating to this world of enjoyment. We will be indifferent.

We know that the connection with the present enjoying mood brings a painful reaction. We can realize that, but we cannot leave it behind. We cannot cut off the connection completely in the stage of sādhana, spiritual practice. Still, we have no other alternative. Our affinity for the positive truth should be increased more and more, and gradually our affinity for our paraphernalia and obligations will all disappear. Although repeatedly we may not be successful, still we will be unable to give up the idea. We will attempt again and again to make progress towards the truth, and when we are unsuccessful, our heart will ache to think that we are repeatedly being defeated by the enemies who are all around us.

But the fire of Kṛṣṇa Consciousness is there, and that fire is not to be quenched. It is a spark of eternal truth. So, the fire will continue, and the day will come when the enemies that are surrounding us will have to retire once and for all. One day we will find that Kṛṣṇa has gradually captured our whole heart, and the others have retired forever; they are no longer present to trouble us in our mental circle. We will find that those unwanted things were like mushrooms; they came out from our mental soil, and now they have all gone and died. They have all gone away, and Kṛṣṇa alone is in the heart. At that time, the heart is only full of Kṛṣṇa, full of the Kṛṣṇa conception.

Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Saraswatī Ṭhākur once instructed a disciple at the time of initiation into the Hare Kṛṣṇa mantra that Kṛṣṇa should be allowed to land in our hearts, just as an army is landed by the navy. An army is carried by a ship, and when they have landed, the fight begins, and they capture the country, just as Julius Caesar said, “Veni vidi vichi, I came, I saw, I conquered.” So, we have to allow Kṛṣṇa to land in our hearts. Then the fight will begin.

What is the proposal of Kṛṣṇa Consciousness, and what is the proposal of so many other conceptions? They are all giving us their assurances from time immemorial, saying, “I shall give you this, I shall give you that,” but the Kṛṣṇa conception will enter and say, “My claim is this: the whole thing is Mine, and you are all trespassers.” The fight will begin; the unwanted things are sure to withdraw, and Kṛṣṇa Consciousness will capture the whole heart. This is the process. Kṛṣṇa Consciousness has only to land within our hearts. Somehow or other, from a pure devotee, a bit of real Kṛṣṇa Consciousness should enter through our ears into our hearts, and Kṛṣṇa will supply whatever is required. One who has imbibed even a slight regard for Kṛṣṇa Consciousness is assured of success in spiritual life, today or tomorrow.

We may have erected high walls on all sides to protect ourselves so that Kṛṣṇa Consciousness may not enter, but Kṛṣṇa is a thief, and a thief requires no invitation. No preparation is necessary for His welcome. He will enter for His own interest, and that is our consolation. Our solace is that Kṛṣṇa is a thief. Māyā has erected her high walls on all sides, but nothing is sufficient to stop Kṛṣṇa Consciousness. Kṛṣṇa is a thief, and stealthily He will enter one day.
A devotee may become hopeless, thinking, “The enemy is within my own house; my own kinsmen are my enemies. I am hopeless.” We may become disappointed, but Kṛṣṇa Consciousness will not leave us in any way. Kṛṣṇa will persevere, and in due course of time, He will conquer. And other things, no matter how closely related they may be in private and well-protected rooms in our hearts, will have to go. They must take leave from every corner of our hearts. Kṛṣṇa will conquer. Kṛṣṇa will capture the whole thing. The unwanted lusty desires of our heart are foreign things. They are only mushrooms. Like mushrooms, they come out; they have no permanent stability or root. They are not rooted to the soil. We may think that what we have stored in our hearts is very near and dear, and that is already mixed with us as a part of our existence, but when Kṛṣṇa Consciousness enters, that will all float like mushrooms.

After all, they are mushrooms; they have no footing, no connection with the soil. They are only floating. All material interests are only floating on the surface. They are not deeply rooted within and without the whole of our existence. Only Kṛṣṇa Consciousness is present everywhere, within all parts of our existence. So, the mushrooms will have to vanish one day. This is confirmed in Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam (2.8.5):

When Kṛṣṇa enters the heart through the ear, He captures the lotus of the heart and then gradually makes all the dirt in the heart disappear. Just as when the autumn season comes, all the water everywhere becomes pure, so also, when Kṛṣṇa enters our hearts, all the impurities within will gradually vanish, and only Kṛṣṇa will remain forever.